ICONOCLASTIC

You and Me, Me and you, We....

2011-12-03T01:00:00.000-08:00

while I say,
the sky is above us
you say,
we are beneath the sky...

While I say,
winter is near
you say,
summer is far....

while I say,
chocolate has cocoa,
you say,
chocolate is cocoa...

while I say,
lets drink and eat
you say,
lets eat and drink

but then ,
while I say,
you are mad
you say
u are mad tooo

and
while I say,
I love you,
you say
I love you tooo.....

SMOKE

2011-06-12T23:14:00.000-07:00

Last strike of mine...
armored to the soul... I jumped...
BUt then..
there was smoke everywhere,
Flames shooting out of the building,
Plane crashing above me,
No choice but to give up,
my last strike was no more than a living victim,
to the dark dense smoke...

a day later....
As a dead soul,
I was still over my corpse burnt to dust,
I could not weep, I was dead..
but I stared at my burnt body,
The death that was planned to speak out,
Now mutilated,
lay meaning less...
my last step... unsuccessful...
my last letter ... burnt to ash..
I did not weep,I stared..
and vanished into the smoke,
that stole my identity,
the smoke dark and dense...

the victory of defeat

2011-03-13T05:53:00.000-07:00

Knowing the defeat!!!

I Fought a war, meant to be lost!!

Losing as my strength!!

Wining as a rainbow's far end!!!
I Traveled as an aimless nomad!!

Earning the knowledge of the desert!!!

To Live near the pond, with no thirst!!!

To Grow as prosperous as an invisible golden tree!!!

just to know that
I would never be seen!!
Never on the lime light!!

safe and insecure!!

The defeat not a defeat - for it couldn't stop me!!
The victory not meaningful as I lost myself!!
Meanings no more meaningful!!

Questions as my only answers!

I stay still as the earth's rock,

healing my wounds,

with the slush of victory,

I found in my defeat!!

by Mrs.Calvin!!

( for the whole poem, life is never difficult!!)

MY LOVER'S LOVE

2011-02-11T20:36:00.000-08:00

If its one person " I HATE " in this world,
It was my LOver's love!!!
Its obvious right!!
Who wouldnot??
I was jeaolous of her,
I craved to be like her,
But I never complained,
I kept to myself!

One fine day,
When the sun was light!!
and the moon bright!!
I stood up!!!
Blowed out,
Blamed and defended
alternating as a lion and a rabbit,
spit words of ephemeral meaning!!!
Took stands with fictious bases!!

AND As THE MAN of the story, he sighed,
He smiled,while I cried,
" Oh, GOD what is He? "
was what I thought!!
But
With a pride of a king he hugged me and said
"Oh!!! my sweet liitle dumbass, you are jealous of yourself, Dont you see it??"
And I whined like a mice,
And he roared with a laughter like a lion...
And For the first time in life, I was proud of my dumbhead , hugged him and kissed him!!!

HAPPILY EVERAFTER ;)

- Willy and Sabu

Dedicated to all my friends girls and boys, who got married , who is getting married!!! and in love!!!
And also to all the uncle's and aunts who are in wedlock!!
I always thought possesiveness hurts, but with a little level head, It rocks!!!

Innocence lost

2010-11-22T07:56:00.000-08:00

Struggling like a feather being forced into the crusher....

Crying to awaken all the crows in the world,

Antagonising every move,

Fearing every touch,

There lived a bundle - twitched,

and withered..

Breathing and dying,

fighting and yielding,

With Innocence lost

And cruelty won...

There lied - a victim
to the rigor of lust and sin...

Tears no more meaningful...

Shouts no more helpful....

The monster would not stop..
Oh!!And The little girl...
Time will not kill her...
Nor Life did spare her...

Growing up- She did,

To reap tears out of nothing,

And see dark out of everything.

Silence Of the Jews

2010-11-02T02:52:00.000-07:00

Beneath the Iron roofs,
Nude and Naive,
Eyes Peering through the dark........
Trumpeting the Notice of the New silence...
The sirens Rang

With No Remorse, Nor chaos,
Their souls were hanged..
Their deaths were disciplined...
And Among the silence of their Screams and Roars...
Hailed were the germans,
Nailed were the jews.....

Yes.... There....
Silence was what , they were taught....
For all their pains,And all their rights....
Yes
Silence was what they were taught
to the child and the old
Yes
Silence was what they were taught
for they were a Jew
And not a german....

But, Alas, Now
there rose a New silence,

A silence
Dark and black,
Sick and deep,
cruel and crying,
Ending the reason of you and Me...
Vaining the struggle of love and hope..

There Rose a new silence,
Never taught, Nor heared,
Flaming through their burning bodies...
Silencing the jews,and the human in you and me........

Remember for a life he never lived

2010-09-10T00:53:00.000-07:00

In the dark wet hole
under the broken wooden bridge
yelling and crying

Desolation was born!

forbidden was his birth
unnoticed was his death
remembered is his life

as a half blind kid
pursued by the beggar's red hot iron

for the over-sized tummy
from the ceaseless years of feeding over invisible food

for the scars from battles outside
and the screams from the battles within

why bear pain of a sinner's pleasure?
why bear life if death's easier?

living in the streets among midnight women and wild men
learnt the feeble hand of a mother in his lonely beggining

found her...yet solace he could'nt

in the end,
what feeds a maimed soul
but hate and pain?

back to place of his cursed origin
to end it all...to die in peace

in the dark wet hole
under the broken wooden bridge

bound in a blanket
bright eyes shining

New purpose was born

Though forbidden was his birth
unnoticed was his death,

remember is his life

where he never lived

willy and sabu

Yours, Now and Ever

2010-08-28T02:46:00.000-07:00

Bleeding remains of ur thought

fills my blood wit taste, as ripe as breaking day

Spoken, silent, lingering words feed my flame

keeps me hanging to the path we lay

In your world, ur love, your memory,

as a shimmering shadow from the past

Firm, frozen

unyielding & undying

For your hands to hold me tight

For your eyes to warm my soul

For your scent to breeze through me

For your life to engulf me

Always here

for you

ever young and ever thine

Alone and firm,

in this life together we conceived!

- Willy & Sabu

I am never alone..

2010-06-15T23:14:00.000-07:00

Thats what it is..

There is always this "ME" sticking with me..

Oh I don't why this ME follows me..

Its like living an arranged marriage..

Keeps bugging me always to think this and that..

AND one final day when I think I got rid of it..

Again There is an other form of ME looking and laughing at me..

Oh lord i just want to be me

and not this "ME"me

But its great at times... come on after all this 23 years...

I think I have fallen in love with this"ME" of my me..

One thing I have not learnt about it... is to shut it ip...

As soon as I do this.. I think I would be well enough to write an autobiography...

And there will be no difference between "ME" and me.. It will be "Me" I think..

And i will be there on the top of the world

Actually the last sentence is written by "ME"

But why does it matter after all..

studying cap

2010-03-20T10:04:00.000-07:00

For the introduction

Inspiration from the fact that

"Different neurons spike(that is gets excited) in tandom or together for different interpretations, memory, and understanding."

and from the problem the youth faces in sitting and studying.

Olden generations have easier time, but today with so many innovations, and discoveries and facts, things are becoming difficult for youth. they need to read a lot.

So here comes to the market "the studying cap" which would take an another at least half a century to be invented.

A cap similar to that of EEG(electroencephalogram) cap will be fitted on to the students head. all he has to do is to sleep. The student should not do any other activity (very important else the stimulation protocol will not work). electric current will flow through this hifi cap and different neurons would be stimulated by these high resolution electrodes and neurons will fire and the student while sleeping will have many information stored, read and even interpreted(because the stimulation will also excite the association cortex(the part of brain that associates things and there are other parts of brain also) and necessary parts that will induce the parts of brain for learning).

Imagine student would go to colleges and schools and sleep in the class. the staff would say everyone to sleep, and those who are awake would be punished.

The future is in our hands

dedicted to " i love to sleep in class community in orkut" and all who sleeps in the class.

studying cap

2010-03-20T10:03:00.000-07:00

Gelusil Vs Love

2010-03-09T22:29:00.001-08:00

I cannot let go of u,
for what u did wasn't wrong,
I cannot forget u ,
for what u did wasn't wrong,
I cannot hate u,
for what u did was not wrong,
all i can do is to swallow the burning pain,
its sharp,
its acidic,
"excuse me can, can anyone give me gelusil"
gelusil fights "heartburns, acidity and indigestion"

"Hail gelusil"

missing someone

2010-01-09T08:48:00.000-08:00

u miss all ur friends , when u miss ur most loved one..

so what are emotions? maniplations of needs..

2009-06-29T03:36:00.000-07:00

So how do u think these so called words emotions have aroused among homosapiens.. ok lets start .. long ago long long ago before there were no modes of communication through sound waves, it was when there were only prokaryotic microbes or primary organisms , there was no mode of love from the parent to the child microbe.. so when does this word love and affection arise, it arouse when aroused something called the need with the progeny. The tree gives the seed it never cares where the seed goes. but in the case of mamals and birds and all where the parent loves the child, the progeny is in need of food and it has to be taken care of. so why did the parent organism care about its progeny it can just leave things as it is.. but there needs to be existence of the race, the parent animal wants to leave its mark in maintaining the ecology. these complex reactions of needs lead to something called love and affection , it can be from the parent, or a partner, but it aroused based on the need. now where comes jealousy ,competition among people having needs lead to certain other emotions like jealousy ego and all that. Take a group of animals, why cant anyone be the leader of the gang, why do the animals chose the powerful one , it is the understanding that if evryone has to live then there need to be powerful one as a leader, now if there are two powerful leaders then the animals around each will opt the one close to them because their needs will be easily satisfied, so they support the one they want to and finally other complex emotions like ego and all that has grounded up. so its this ,just needs are those that rule the world

2009-06-29T01:15:00.000-07:00

so why is it the artics melt and chennai burns a much more lot..

i had this weird dream may be it rotates longitudenally (forgive me for the word).\offcourse there is some logical problem here.. wen there are two kinetic forces it sums up on a point so leading to one motion in one direction what if but in the far or near future the delhi will lie in the equator and artic comes to the temperate .. now comes the other prob earth is flattened so there will be centre of gravity or symmetry prob for its rotation around axis... buts its so quite excited to think that the earth rotates both in x nd y direction.... ok it sounds stupid but stilgll woah... woooooah its grt to imagine tht way

THE WARRIOR AND THE FEATHER

2009-06-25T08:04:00.000-07:00

it was the end of the war,
but wars never end,
I pulled out my steel coverings,
and decided to rest to feel the air,
always ready to get back into my steel covering..
I closed my eyes
Amidst the dreams of pain and blood shed something touched me..
Touched not long enough so that i could own the feeling..
But not short enough so that i can ignore it..
It was like an angel walking amidst chaos..
This feather touched with such innocence ,
tht it flew away like a wind without knowing what it can do..
It would have been better if something would have ripped me,
But It was this touch,
It was not the hugs that gives me confidence before the war..
It was the touch..
It was not like the warrior shouts before the war..
It was like a invisible song in a lost jungle..
It will never come back to show me again..

I heard the sirens,
I have to put on my steel coverings..
Here I go clash clash clash..

I returned back again closed my eyes again,
I just recollected,
It was the feather,
I could never hold it..
I was afraid it will get crushed by my hold of not to leave it..
I was afraid i will withold its freedom to move..
I was afraid i was not its destination..
I was afraid it will lose its path..
before I was concluding on how to hold it..
It flew away..
and that was when I regretted why I was a warrior,
why shouldn't I have been a feather collector,

Everyone will look at my scars of the knives,
But who will notice the search in my halves,

Instead on analysing on the phenomena of holdong it,
I should have enjoyed the feel and the feather,
but i am an warrior,
i wake up with blood shed and noise..
i never wanted the innocent feather to be stained with my hold..

let it be its own,
let me be my own,
It had reminded that the steel covering is not my skin..

I opened my eyes
There i saw in distant a child holding the feather and running,
the feather did not feel it was with held..
It felt the freedom of the boy,
It was unstained..
It was free..
but still in the hands of the boys..
now i had to get back to cure my pain,
but the touch will never be cured,
the touch will settle into my memory as a calm as it can among the chaos of my mind..

2009-06-11T12:36:00.000-07:00

the final solution to a problem is what next?..

Its all abt it

2009-05-08T18:34:00.000-07:00

whenever u feel, it opens up,

whenever u think, it excites,

with the cargos of transport cycled and cycled, u fell the excitation ignited.

with its new innovations, u have memories stored,

with its long term commitments, u have ur cognition increased,

here is the neuron, my love i am talking abt..

hope neurologist understands it

getting lost

2009-05-08T05:15:00.000-07:00

when the little kids join their hands,

it means more than a prayer,

they dont know colors,

they dont know nouns,

they feel the rain,

they feel the pain,

with increase in height,

they feel more tight,

they close their doors to the soul,

there they stand as robots with innocence lost..

tuned to the simulations of the world with themselves lost.

2009-05-06T21:37:00.001-07:00

All along the distance as far as my eyes can reach,

There was no sign of the sun

But something told that this is never the end

Even if i wanted it to end.

It ws not abt living,

It was the reluctance abt leaving,

It was not abt winnning,

It was the ignominy of turning.

I never knew why I was runnning..

Is it to catch the deer,

Or is it to fool the lion,

I never knew why I was running..

I asked for water,

I was shown the desert.

I asked for air,

I was hit by the storm.

It never ended

And in nothing,

I saw everything.

Vision in darkness..

Satisfaction in emptiness

I seeked for vision,

I was shown the garden..

I seeked for audition.

I heard a song.

I forgot the thorns behind the beauty…

I forgot the words behind the song..

Every thorn showed me pain..

Every pain showed me gain..

Every word showed me question..

Every question showed me my passion..

I learnt never to question the questions..

I learnt the immortality in mortals..

I learnt it was not abt living,

but it was the reluctance abt leaving.

So Many relations

2009-05-02T10:51:00.000-07:00

There are so much people we meet.. each and evryone touch us with something more than goodness.. their trails will always live in our heart as a smile, a warmth comes into us all the time, when u think of them.... even if there are bitterness , with time it flies way.... life at times is too hard, these memories of loved one, and some time acquintances even will make u better. remember all of them, take time to respect each relationship, it makes them unique in ur life.. and u become unique too.. take time to give a warm hug, or atleast a "surprise hi"..

People are more important than anything else in life.. make value out of it..

social reforms that would help the country grow..

2009-04-27T01:37:00.000-07:00

The only social reform i believe is the instigation to think..
when we think we reform..
Even though u do nothing, initiate the thought, thoughts are those that control the human body...
never think that the words u spread for awareness are mere waste waste.. there would be atleast one to act upon it.. never give up.. change is for sure.. but be ready to sacrifice a little atleast a little time to spread the awareness...

Marriage

2009-04-13T03:47:00.000-07:00

ha when i think of marriage i feel a rush of fear into my heart.. all the complications, minute errors that leads to big calamity, war of possesiveness, self denial,etc much more.. This is how the indian society helped me potray marriage.

Apart from all the romance that u dream, there are so many other considerations, not only that u have to satisfy the man u live for, u have to adjust to the convinences and inconviniences of his family. offcourse the adjusting stuff is not bad, when u love the family u naturally do it, but who gives u a choice to love the family u enter(in the indian society, off course not all families are like this.. but still i stand witness for many). there are too many relatives that u have to take care of. sometimes u have to deny the preferences u give to ur own parents, sometimes u have to accept the most embarrasing momments for some distant relative of a diatant relative...

Its ok when u do all these thing for ur own accord, and there is a meaning in doing all this, when it is done from the heart but we actually do it for the sake of the society and especially afraid of the society.

Our marriages have not become a matter of heart.

It has becomes a matter of mind. people calculate so many things, manipulate so many relations, they dont let u choose ,oh god i repeat "they dont let u choose, they convince that whomever u have chosen is ur choice, but it is the choice of everyone including u , and sometimes except u.". All our doubts stay with our marriage, some dont get cleared even after sixty years of marriage life.. so what is the use of marriage. I thought marriage was a place where u understand each other's goals, understand each other's weakness, understand and respect eachother's stand. I thought it was a place where u balance.

the balance is achieved by taking of things from any on eof the plate brutally but beautifully that u can find no fault in it.. if the weight is shared equally to both plates it would be grt, balance achieved by sharing is beautiful. but in reality this is not happening..

evertime when the balance is needed the girl suffers much she has to sacrifice her goal, sometimes even men do.. but they are not forced to..

the girl is sometimes denied her higher degree because then they have to search for a man who is much more educated.. i dont understand the concept.. how ridiculous.. if u get a much more good and talented person, its actually good.. but they dont want to do that instead they stop the girl's studies.

Marriage needs so many strategies, In midst of all the strategies and confusion the real meaning of marriage gets ignored.

Marriage is not a matter of settling things, it is where u start a life, its about the beginning of a dream. but the girl burries her dream, her own personality and her likes and hatred when she gets married..

whomsoever it is when it comes to marriage, let marriage not be a hasty decision of just appearance and matter of wealth. let us all take a deep breath and hope that each of our marriage be a cultivation of successful dreams and monuments of unbreakable love.

its dificult to write..

2009-04-08T08:12:00.000-07:00

I thought i had so much to write when i started these blogs.. and free webpages but alas..

For some unknown reason..

There seems a mystic hindrance when i compose oeuvre

Then my brains would try to squeeze itself to write the best of lines but then comes the agony nothing except vacant thoughts would rush inside me..

then comes the real embarassement i go upto my friend's blogs and start reading things and i really get amazed with them.. alas all the efforts of writing an interesting blog finally wades away and an ambiguousness of whether i would end up in something worth reading catches me..

and my blogs become more and more verbose as of now u would have noticed that..

HA SO "WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO WRITE A BLOG"

Then i thought who cares i should just scribble as i scribble in the notepad..

Ha may be i can write all the stupid, funny, crazy, freaking sometimes even sick things and wait to checkout whether there are people out to read all this stuff and may be i will hit up with similar persons and that would be interesting... after all now i have started to feel blog is all abt this..

why does life exist??

2009-04-01T03:36:00.000-07:00

lets walk the evolution.. what do u find .. we exist not to live our life .. but to continue our chain.. we work always for a better future.. even the sole motivation for a better today is a better tomorrow..to exist either in the same way or the better way is the cause for life to exist..

its unbelievable at times.. the salmon fish reproduces and dies.. what do u think we do.. we reproduce leave a generation with problems so that they can live on it, solving it. what to do u think is our reason to live. Its just this, the whole universe is abt this, we help existence of things in some form.

The sun helps the existence of the planets, the planets help existence of matter- of energy, the matter in order helps existence of living things( so called)i.e we. when u dont help the existence of anything u are not living.. u dont exist.. u dont exist even as non living thing or as matter.

existence of life is this simple.

u help existence of something.

nonliving thing i.e atoms and molecules exist to create living( at times)

But we living things make comlicated things to exist because of us.. like love, happiness, sadness, charity, relationships, ego which in turn gives us a illusionary or u can also call it real cause to exist..

so why do u think u exist

some tell they exist to make their family happy,

some tell they exist to make the world happy,

some tell they exist to destroy the enemy,

some tel they exist to earn money.

but we should remember when we leave nothing which exists after we die never worry. we always let the fact that "we lived" to exist for ever.

this is the story of existence to exist