Heart filled with no words

I can't find words in me anymore
words are replaced by this rather formless beasts.
I think that they are infact beautiful angels,
I am not sure, let me explain...

They are these beautiful angels
giving me light,
They take me into this beautiful forest with scent that's so intense ,
that it seems surreal, But I know its real.
I know the warmth is real,
I know the light that hits the nerves of my soul is real.
that my heart filled with this beautiful angel is real....

But then something happens...
My heart stops pumping blood into my head,
but I know its beating faster,
And then there is this dam that's about to burst open at the brink of my eyelids,
diminishing light that has so far been swallowing the dark in the forest.
It feels real but i know its surreal,
or I want it to be surreal.